Happy Happy

it was a sleepless night yesterday, but it wasn't cuz of something bad happened or whatsoever. haha. it was cuz i was too happy and excited!! that's why i couldn't really sleep. i just couldn't stop smiling while writing this wei. hehe. =D

well, its been really a very very very long time, since i've seen Owen and Ryan. felt like 100 years!! haha. so obviously didn't get to talk to them also. been missing them alot!! especially lil Ryan and Clifford. hehe. but i went on skype yesterday and finally had a chat with Ryan wei!! it was really great to hear his voice!! and Owen's voice too!! okay, for those of you who don't know about them, they are just like my lil brother la. nothing more than that. hehe. so anyway, yesterday's chatting session already lifted me up sky high and i was all too excited till i couldn't really sleep. haha. okay, i know i sound abit too much. but who cares!! haha. =D

and this morning, Ryan actually woke his bro, Joshua up from bed so that Joshua can sign in skype for him to chat with me!! aww, so sweet!! so Joshua gave me a misscall, and i actually woke up. well, those who knew me, will know that when i fall asleep, i'll be sleeping like the dead. in order for you to wake me up, you really gotta "slap" me. haha. well, maybe "shake" is a more suitable word. hehe. anyhow, maybe i was too excited after the chat yesterday so that's why wasn't really in deep sleep at night. and i'm amazed that i was actually woke up by a misscall. cuz that won't happen normally. hehe. therefore, managed to chat with Ryan again!! though i didn't really get to talk to Owen, but he was beside Ryan all the while. so at least i get to hear his voice!! i miss it so much!! hehe. so after about 2hours, i had to go for lunch. but this time, i was really satisfied already. i'm sure i'll have a good night sleep tonight. and sweet dreams too!! haha. thanks to Joshua of course. hehe. it really made up for those times that i didn't get to see them around and talk to them. it really made my day wei!! still smiling!! hehe. =D

Open Blind Eyes

When i was with Daniell yesterday, i was drawn to a particular picture of the crucifixion of Jesus. it seemed more realistic than any others i had ever seen. the expression on Jesus' face spoke to me, not of pain but of the agonizing anticipation of pain. the painting was shrouded in shadows, with the only beam of light focused directly on Jesus.

it always puzzled my heart that only one person was lifting the heavy cross into place. later i learned from Dan that the painting was by Rembrandt. the solitary person struggling to raise the cross was in fact a self-portrait. the painting is extremely powerful. but understanding it in the context of the painter's life lifts its meaning to another dimension. it is Rembrandt's contrite confession of his own complicity in Jesus' crucifixion. it is more than a painting. it is a parable.

Jesus' parables open our eyes and expose our lives.

黑白配

太阳晒得我 眼睛睁不开
你的好脾气 让我的心情坏不起来
下雨下得我 眼神发呆
你的道歉 听着听着我都快要笑出来

谁说不能黑白配
世界上没有什么事
能够如此地绝对
曾经有人这样唱过
白天它不懂夜的黑
你却懂得我的美

有时候我会 感觉非常累
有时候也会 不自觉把你拖累
你有时会说 我们不配
只要能依偎 真的真的什么都无所谓

钢琴也是黑白键
一样能弹出我对你 只有满满的感谢
也许黑永远不明白
在这个彩色的世界
有你我才会存在

伤口

我们彼此留下一个无法痊愈的伤口给对方
痛着醒来 痛着入睡
即使早已远离 当时的战场

遗憾昨日的笑容无法出现在今天的脸上
那些模样 历经沧桑
宁愿提醒自己 该如何学习遗忘

伤口被时间贿酪
伤口让勇气沉默
伤口没收了原本属于我蓝色的天空

你还是可以温柔
伤痛让我去承受
伤口竟成了如今找寻你的线索
只是别忘了原本属于你的是我

New Year

2007 is here!! wow, really don't know what to expect for this year. maybe i should expect the unexpected?? hehe. but i'm looking forward to it. haha. anyway, i'm gonna celebrate new year with family and friends. it's real fun and nice cuz it's the people you be with that made the diff. i am truly blessed to have all my friends and my family with me. but above all, i am assured and blessed to know that my God is with me!! glad to be in the Lord's house and start the year ahead with Him. hehe. just remembered the question a friend asked me years ago. wouldn't it be better if you go to church because you're happy?? happy to be in the Lord's house. instead of going to church out of obligation?? well, very true indeed. that question will come across my mind whenever i'd forgotten why i should be in church at times. well, i'm gonna start the new year with something i'd never done before. haha. i'm sleeping over at Sharon's place. hehe. i never slept over at friends place on new year before. haha. we really didn't plan this. it just happenend!! haha. actually it was more like i can't go home after the party cuz i don't have keys and its really late. so have to trouble Sharon. hehe. and i'm writing this using her com. haha. but thanks alot gurl, had a great time with you really. hehe. anyhow, it's a new year, somehow it's easier to tell yourself to have a new start again. isn't it?? well, i'm not really sure about that though. haha. so hope that you'll have a good start this year. have a very very very BLESSED NEW YEAR!! =D

爱的起点...Somewhere...

Looking Behind

2006, only left with one day. i'm indeed grateful and thankful to God. for another year He gave me. hehe. really thank God for all the blessings He showered on me. that includes my dear family and you, all my dear friends. hehe. many precious moments i had this year and will treasure them in my heart always. how i wish i have a few more days in 2006. or maybe many more. haha. anyhow, i know that as time passes by, i'll understand a little more about life, i'll learn a little more about myself and i'll see a little more of the world around me. finally, i wanna commit my 2007 into God's hands and may all glory, honor and everything be unto my God alone!! =D

没有谁能取代你在我心上...你是我的专属天使 ...我哪里还需要别的愿望...

Meant To Be Or Not

i guess sometimes some ppl or some things can be so called meant to be. some ppl will call it fate and some define it as destiny. not sure how i should define it really, but i'll only end up feeling not being in control. well, at times this kinda feeling can be quite scary. i mean, you just don't know why things ended up the way they are or some ppl became a total stranger out of a sudden. and to accept the fact that ppl do change at all times is quite hard actually. or maybe i was having too high hopes on ppl i shouldn't have. basically, i suppose things happen for a reason. at least i believe God has a reason for all that. so if things are meant to be like that, perhaps i shouldn't take it too seriously, isn't it??

well, honestly i guess it is better to accept the fact that things or ppl are meant to be. just like friendships that are meant to be and also couples too. you can't force any of this, you get what i mean?? things like this will happen when it is suppose to happen or meant to happen. so why not just take it easy and let things happen the way they should, the way they are meant to be.

anyway, got the chance to clear my head pretty much lately while going on holidays. and i just realize i needed to take a break quite badly. haha. many thanks to ya'll who went for the few trips with me. thank you each and everyone of you who made all my trips happened. i truly enjoyed myself with each and every group of ya'll. had a great time and enjoyed your company so much!! i guess what really matter is not where you go but who you go with. honestly, now i'm feeling much better recalling all the great times i had. so to you my friend, take a break, not to have a kit kat. haha. but well, no harm done taking a break right?? and perhaps after that break, you might be able to see things and ppl in a diff perspective maybe. i suppose its not a bad thing, after all.

也许有一天...我会爱上你...

Blessed Christmas

We Are the Reason by Avalon

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn’
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find,
But we never realized a Baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives.

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live.

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means,
On a dark and cloudy day, a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love.

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live.

I’ve finally found a reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him,
In all that I do, every word that I say
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him.

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live.

Tiring But Happy Days

First of, i don't really have the time to write now, but i have this happy feeling and great excitement to make this blog a lil closer to as cute as my best pal's blog. but after browsing through all of their blogs, whoa, everything was said and done. but only not filled with pics. haha. cuz all pics are taken using my hp. so i haven't really send it to them. its my bad. hehe. i'll take that. anyway, their blogs are rather cute. their comments on the times we spent together. haha. but seriously, like what the oldies said is true, and i had been stressing alot about it, which is, a picture is worth thousands words. hehe. that's why sometimes i can't restrain from taking pics with my hp. haha. well, as much as days are still filled with dates and gatherings at the moment, i'm really enjoying each and everyday!! although it's actually quite tiring to be out the whole day till midnight but nevertheless it was still fun. haha. who will say no to fun?? hehe. so some of you guys must be wandering where have i been, going out everyday till midnight. i don't really have the time to write down every single thing from day one, just a summary maybe. haha. basically nothing much la, some days are lunch or dinner dates, gatherings and personal dates, not forgetting the yam cha session everyday wei. hehe. even more tiring than school days!! haha. oh, i've missed out that i did movie marathons with my best pals too. it has really been quite awhile since i did one. hehe. and for once since a hundread years literally, i can say that i've watched all the movies in the cinema expect horror movies and malay movies. i know its nothing much but just wanna write it down. haha. so right now, i'm looking forward for thursday, cuz there'll be 4 new movies coming up. therefore, i'm planning my next movie marathon to be 3 movies in a day!! haha. cuz i never tried watching 3 movies in a day wei. hehe. anyone wanna join me for the marathon?? hahaha. okiez, got to go now. will be away for a few days again. yes, i know again. hehe. but what to do, i'm having holidays!! so you guys take good care ya. see ya'll around!! =D

Happy Holidays

Yo!! how have ya'll been doing?? hope that ya'll been doing great. hehe. i know i'd been missing in action for almost a month. haha. that's because i was trying to catch up with each and everyone of you all wei. hehe. anyway, glad to be back. hopefully i'll have more time to drop by here. haha. well, i'm enjoying my holidays so far. making full use of everyday, that's for sure. hehe. and its really great meeting up and catching up with all those whom i couldnt do so in the past. glad to know that we were all still able to keep track with each other's lives cuz we really make that effort for each other. but of course there are some ppl who don't really wanna meet up with you after some time already. so to me, i can't do much but just take it easy. well, you can't go around forcing ppl to meet up with you right?? haha. at least that's not what i'm gonna do. anyhow, i've met up with so many ppl and i've been outstation in a few places. haha. i regretted for not able to write about it there and then. but i'll try to do so from now on. hehe. so i got some pics here for ya'll to get a glimpse of my happy holidays!! =D

Seremban Nov '06

Long awaited All For Christ presentation, to me at least. it was on the 18th and 19th of Nov. yes, i was in the midst of my exams. was i crazy?? yes, i was crazy. but for God!! haha. anyway, it was one of the few presentations by AFC this year. hehe. this presentation was in Agape Gospel Assembly, Seremban. thank You Lord, for giving me the joy of dancing for You again!! =D