Wednesday 28 November 2007

Welcome Back

My Dear AiWei finally came back from Aus. wheeeeeee. so glad to know that she is just 10 minutes drive away now. hehe. can't wait to hang out with her again. there's so much to update each other about i'm sure. but well, time is all we have now, isn't it?? haha. =P

Lou po, im really glad for the fact that i can still call you like that. hehe. and it means alot to me. all these years, you proved to me that distance only made our friendship even stronger. and even until this very day, i still feel that this precious friendship is amazing and unbelievable. it's like we found each other in fairyland. haha. but i know that our friendship is real and true. i feel like as though the feeling of closeness between us has never die down. cuz it feels like we only found each other yesterday, and we're so glad we did.
so thank you for staying by my side even though sometimes, i might not be the best friend for you. but i will give you the best of me, that is my promise to you. hehe. you know that one thing for sure, i will always be here for you, no matter what happens okay. because Best Friends are Forever!! *hugs hugs* Love you!! ^-^

Fly Away With You

You're flying in a few hours time, and though we spent each second left together, but it felt like we're miles apart already. D, just want you to know that i would really love to go with you, i really do. but there are things that i can't just leave behind like that. okay, maybe like you said, those were excuses, i have to admit it is partly true. but it's not totally also. you know i will sacrifice anything for you, whenever or whatever i can. i know this trip means alot to you, to us. and you know i was almost in tears when you told me about your whole plan. i guess you're my best listener on earth right now. it's almost like you can read my mind. freaky but amazing at the same time. and i truly appreciate it. honestly, i would rather just forget about everything on my mind now, and hop on the plane with you. cuz we'll never know what the future holds, so all we can do is treasure each other, every single moment we have. but i don't wanna make the wrong choices. and what if we both felt that somethings wrong after boarding the plane? it would have been too late already. i have to keep a clear state of mind right now. looking at the things on my hands, i really can't just leave it all like that and fly away. D, that's the reason i'm staying and nothing else okay. just like i've told you. so i wrote this here just to give you the assurance and reminder no matter where you will be. i really really really thank you for everything you've done for me in the past 200 days. hope you'll have a great holiday ya. make sure you enjoy yourself. go and have fun so that the next time round, you'll know where to take me. and i'm missing you already. hehe. but most importantly, i'll be praying for safe journey mercies for you and your family. have a blast dear!! hugs hugs!! love ya always!! ^.^

Saturday 24 November 2007

AFC Crew's 1st Showcase



Wheeeeeee!! So that was our first time presenting the Remix1. i think it was great!! so proud of my crew mates. hehe. so sorry you guys gotta endure my tough trainings. and after all the hard work and effort, it finally paid off well!! that's why i'm truly proud of you guys. and together, i believe we made God proud too. hehe. All For Chirst is back in action this time!! haha ^-^


Finally we got sincere positive feedbacks from the audience. it's really encouraging. and even though i'm really exhausted now, so is everyone, but it's definitely worthwhile. and so we took a pic with Bishop Ng Moon Hing after the presentation. he's so cool wei. =P









AFC Crew rocks yo!! XD














Still posing after the dinner,
at the stairway. haha >_<













Me posing with Jan. Peace out!! ^^



Thursday 22 November 2007

Tag #3

Tagged by Celine ^^

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :
1. Knee guards
2. Hiphop jacket
3. Converse Cap
4. Mp3?? Ipod?? hmm =P
5. Sony Cam

THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS : Celine
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER :
1. Young
2. Kind
3. Friendly
4. Loves God
5. Loves to dance

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAD DONE FOR YOU :
Keeping her words. hehe
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU :
I'm coming for AFC camp!! =P
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL :
Love her as a sister in Christ.
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE :
She won't be my enemy la. no reason ever. hehe

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU :
1. Pern
2. Aiwei
3. Sheryl
4. Jas
5. Jan
6. Owen
7. Bryant
8. Sam
9. Jien Feng
10. Wei Xiang

1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
Hmm he's very secretive about it. so dunno leh. haha
2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
He's still single wor. and available la =P
3. IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
Actually yea. cuz he wont dare to bully my best friend n they can make a good couple. but too bad Pern is taken. hehe
4. WHAT ABOUT NO. 1 AND NO. 5?
Erm oops. neither of them are lesbians. so of course it won't happen la
5. WHAT IS NO. 3 STUDYING?
Accountings in UTAR
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 6?
Chatting on MSN now. haha
7. DOES NO. 4 WORK?
Nope. still studying
8. DOES NO. 8 HAS ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
I dunno wor. haha. sorry man
9. WILL YOU WOO NO. 8?
Well i must admit i will. haha. let me finish first la. but i will only do it when he's breakin'. cuz he's such a good breaker wei. so can't help it XD
10. HOW ABOUT NO. 5?
Wheeeeeee sometimes la. haha
11. DOES NO. 2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Yupe. she has 2 bros who loves her alot. how nice. hehe
12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.3 AND NO.4?
Coincidently, i met the both of them in church. only things is in different churches la. hehe
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
My heart. =) but her physical being is currently in China. hehe
14. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Back in CHS. miss those days alot alot alot!! really glad we met!! ^^
15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
Honestly, she can be if she wants to. haha =P

Wednesday 21 November 2007

一公升的眼泪 Ichi Ritoru No Namida

有什么东西,什么事,什么人,可以让你时隔多时,还是有著同样的感动?
最近,我再重看《一公升的眼泪》这部日剧,和以前第一次看一样,很多场景还是会流泪,
再一次被感动。

短短的11集,却有蕴涵了许多东西值得我们去思考,去学习。我用了一天的时间再把它看完了。有好多次,我又忍不住哭了。不仅是被亚也的坚强而感动,更被围绕在她周围的亲情,友情,爱情而感动。这部电视剧不是像琼瑶的电视剧那样无病呻吟,那般浅薄无味,也不是象《大长今》那样传奇精彩,只是在讲述着一个普通而又不平凡的女孩和病魔抗争的故事。催人泪下的情节,感人至深的内涵,使这部日剧变得那样的特别,深深吸引了我。

非常喜欢剧中的三个场景。一个是亚也生病后,得到了朋友的帮助,却意外使朋友受伤令朋友无法参加篮球赛后,班里的同学讨论亚也的问题。麻生听不下去,站出来训斥众人,却发现亚也站在教室门外。亚也拿了自己忘在课桌里的笔记,尴尬的走出教室。麻生追上去,坚持把亚也背下楼梯,并且推着亚也出了校门。在学校附近的天桥上,两人第一次见面的地方,亚也下定决心离开心爱的东高,去养护学校学习。在她对麻生表示感谢的同时,也和麻生说了再见。此时,天空中飘起了朵朵雪花。。。飘起雪花的天桥上,麻生一下子跪倒在亚也的轮椅后面。他说:“其实我和他们一样,其实,我什么也做不了。我只能看着你痛苦,我什么也做不了。”两个人都泪流满面。

然后是亚也在班会时,向所有同学告别的场景。亚也在讲台上对大家说:“我想有人是知道的。我的病是治不好的,好象没有治愈方法,被医生告知总有一天将不会站立、走路、说话。在这一年里,理所当然能做的事变的一件一件不会做了。在梦中,我能和同学一起说话、走路,一起打篮球,尽情的奔跑。但一睁开眼睛,只有一个不能再自由活动的身体。每天都在改变,为了不摔倒,要怎么走路才好呢?要怎么样才能快点吃完便当呢?怎么样做才能不介意别人的目光呢?我不得不在脑中一一考虑这些生活下去。上高中、上大学、去工作,这样描绘出来的未来已经不可能实现了。找不到生存下去的道路,看不到微小的希望。因为生病,我的人生被毁掉了。好几次我都这么想。但是,虽然很悲伤,但这是现实。不管怎样哭泣也逃避不了病魔。就算想要回到过去,时间也不会倒流。所以我想一定要让自己喜欢上这样的自己。自从身体变成这样后才体会到许多事情。家人只是陪在我身边就让我觉得很可贵。装做若无其事帮助我的朋友们的手非常温暖。拥有健康的身体,只是如此就已经很幸福了。虽然生病了,但也并不是只有失去。身体变成这样的我,就算是我被人说是残疾,背着中重包袱的我,就是现在的我。我会抬头挺胸的活下去。因此,我自己决定了要去养护学校。虽然和大家生活的地方不一样,今后我想在自己选择的道路上一步一步地寻找光明。直到我能这样微笑着说话为止,我最少需要一升的眼泪。所以我不再认为离开这个学校将会有什么终结。大家,一直以来亲切的待我,真的很感谢。”说完这些,亚也离开了教室。亚也的父母把亚也推出学校。快到学校门口时,同学们在麻生的带领下追了出来,在金色的阳光中,大家又唱起了高一时的合唱歌曲。
我也非常喜欢那些歌曲,超好听的,而且主角们也真的演得非常好。

还有一个是,麻生终于按捺不住心里的感情,飞奔到亚也就读的养护学校,向她告白的场景。他温柔地对亚也说:“将来的事情我不知道,但是现在我有信心100%正确地说出我的心情。和你说话,不管说得多慢,我都会听。如果不能打电话,就会像这样直接过来见你。因为我不是海豚,你也不是。你走路的话,不管多慢,我都会和你一起走。现在我可能不大可靠,但是总有一天,我会变得对你有用的。即使不能像以前那样,我也要将这种心情传达给你。我不认为我们是两个世界的人。
我。。。也许,喜欢你。。。也许。。。也许喜欢你。。。可能。。。”
麻生最后一次在医院探望亚也时,记得麻生拿着日语拼音的字板,亚也用颤抖的食指戳出每一个音标,“活下去,要一直活下去”,整个屏幕都是一个个黑色的日语音标。
旁边的麻生,两行泪水不断地涌下。。。
这个话少、固执、桀骜又封闭自己的男生,实在让人看了难受。也是第一次知道锦户亮,这个左眼下方有颗泪痣的男生。那样的坚硬外表和柔软热烈的心,在亚也面前变得这样无助。
除了流泪和心疼他们,别的什么也做不了。

生活中真实的亚也已经去世17年了。真的希望所有那些为自己的痛苦而痛苦着的人都看看这部日剧。看看什么才是死亡,什么才是生存,什么才是温柔和爱,什么才是眼泪。。。

承认自己变得乐观开朗起来,也承认这样打动自己的时刻不多。更承认独自流泪的夜晚很多。看看亚也,或者你看看身边的亚也。怎样的人生不过就是一句话:“好好过活。”
亚也曾说:“人不该活在过去,只要做现在力所能及的事情就好了。跌倒后可以顺便仰望一下天空。
蓝蓝的天啊,今天也在无限的延伸朝着我微笑。我还活着。”她的微笑背后,是无法抓住美好的苍凉。
投篮的亚也,喜欢;和爸爸斗嘴的亚湖,喜欢;可爱的弟弟妹妹,喜欢;不离不弃的爸爸妈妈,喜欢;
扬起樱花的校园路,喜欢;指挥同学们合唱的舞台,喜欢;发现小狗的公园,喜欢;和麻生在一起每一分每一秒,都喜欢。
喜欢了,就舍不得了。美好的,总是最叫人心疼的。
亚也,你在那边就不再哭泣了吧?

因为被太感动到,所以反倒说不出来真的有多好。只是眼泪就没有停过。
看完这部日剧,我真的至少流了一公升的眼泪。每看一次,都是如此。
怕自己会哭吗? 那就别看吧。但你却少了体会人生意义超凡的机会。
想好好珍惜现在,对所有自己所拥有的都心怀感恩吗? 那就看吧。
谢谢爸爸妈妈一直在我身边,谢谢朋友们没有背叛过,谢谢我爱的人和爱我的人没有故意伤害过我。谢谢我们都这么健康的生活着。请努力让自己有健康生活着的价值,神给我们的这一切,这么细微的幸福,请时刻感念于心。

我是活着的
摔倒了又有什么
站起来就行了
摔倒的同时仰望天空
蓝蓝的天空
今天也是广阔无边的微笑着
我是活着的

Tuesday 20 November 2007

樱野3加1

《樱野3加1》也播出大结局了。还蛮喜欢这个ending的,感觉和其他偶像剧不一样哦。所以有点特别,也很有创意啦。总的来说,这部偶像剧还不错看喔。让我回想起以前高中的学生校园生活,真的好怀念耶。才发现,原来穿校服的日子,其实是幸福的。=P

怀念,与好友姐妹们和同学们那纯纯的友谊,真心相待;上课时打打闹闹,或埋头苦读应付考试;
曾一起闯祸,一起闯过的疯狂事件;还有那个最纯真的自己,和曾经的年少轻狂.......^-^

Mission Terminated!!! =D

Monday 19 November 2007

273 Days

273 days.......

我相信
世界上总是有地方
可以让人永远忘记忧伤

Sunday 18 November 2007

Tributes To CID Crew
























CID Crew is the best!!! >.-
CID Crew is the Champion!!! =)
CID Crew is unbeatable!!! ^^
CID Crew is street dance pros!!! >.<
CID Crew is the coolest!!! =P
CID Crew is Crazy In Dance!!! ^_^
CID Crew rocks on forever!!! XD




Dear Sheryl, i am truly proud of CID Crew for making it to Top4 in Astro's Battleground Competition. Even though CID Crew's journey came to an end in this competition, but it's not the destination that matters, but it's the experiences and memories you all gained along the journey. i'm really glad that i was able to be there for you right from the start. so i have the right to say that, you all really improved so much. more than what you all could imagine. and you can hear it when the crowd cheers, they already chose the winner!! XD i am thankful, that i was there with you yesterday. though i had to make sacrifices and there's somewhere else i should be too, but it didn't took me long to decide. cuz the only thing i wanna do, is to be there for you. just remember that, it's not the end for CID Crew, because its spirit remains. you have your family and friends with you no matter what happens, and you got me too. for as long as CID Crew is dancing, i will be your faithful supporter always!! promise ya. hehe. so keep all the precious experiences and memories with you, and dance on!!! ^0^

Wednesday 14 November 2007

总不能

对吧
总不能什么事情都如你所愿
总不能什么事情都和别人有同样的看法
总不能什么事情都不会感到失望
总不能什么人物都有同样的默契
总不能什么态度都照单全收
总不能什么状况都保持冷静
总不能什么状况都保持笑容

Saturday 10 November 2007

Time

Nothing in life is more important than your family.
Give our loved ones the time they deserve,
Because these things cannot be put off till "some other time".

Because family is everything. =)

Wednesday 7 November 2007

Psalm 73

25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides You.

26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

27 Those who are far from you will perish;
You destroy all who are unfaithful to You.

28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all Your deeds.

- NIV -

Saturday 3 November 2007

20th

Thanks for the wishes!! ^-^
Thanks for the calls, sms-es, cards, emails, e-cards, testi-es, comments, msg-es!! =)
Thanks for calling all the way from Aus, China, HK, NZ & UK!! =D
Thanks for the handmade cake, SR cakes, delicious meals and lovely pressiez!! >_<
Thanks for my favorite Aus brand cake from my dearest family!! =P
Thanks for the wonderful surprises and
memorable Singapore trip!! ^0^
Thanks for making it special though i wanted it simple, but i'm really glad you did!! XD

Thanks for remembering!!
>.-
Thanks for being a blessing to me!! (^_^)