God's Promises

Honestly, i really have no idea that today is gonna end like this. thought i will be able to really train today after dance class as today was really my last time in UG already. but then again, i don't know how, i don't know why, things just didn't happen. and of course, earlier in the car, i was just wandering why God didn't allowed it to happen. don't really know how to describe this but i somehow feel strongly that God is in control. He always does. therefore i do believe that He have a reason for this. just that when the reality hit me in the car, i didn't know how to react at all. sad?? disappointed?? well, couldn't say a word in the car. words just didn't want to come out. and there's only silence in the car with the radio playing. hope that Dan won't mind. Jan was quite too. i guess we were trying to accept the fact that it's over now. anyway, right now i kind of accept it already. well, don't wanna be emo for so long. haha. just that i wish that i'm not sitting here but rather training in UG instead. haha. can only happen in my dreams now i guess. =P

as i recall the rainbow i saw today when we're on our way to class, though we were really late but if we're not then i would have missed it perhaps, i think God was trying to prepare me for this. haven't seen a rainbow for quite some time already, can't even remember when's the last time i saw one. it's beautiful. hehe. and everytime i see a rainbow, i'll always be reminded of God's promises to me. and He always keeps His promises. i prayed all this while that i'll leave everything into God's hands and the rainbow reminded me at that point of time to really let go and let Him take control. God have His plans for me. and not knowing what's gonna happen at night, i said a prayer in my heart and asked God to give me His strength for today's last training and to accept the fact that it's time to stop training for now. little did i know that time, God had a plan for me already and right now, it really became my prayer.

remembering God's promises to us in the bible, it directs our focus off people, off our circumstances and on to the Lord. the lesson i need to learn is not about my trusting in what i have been promised, but to continue to trust the God of the promise. living in this world, we tend to forget the reality that God owes us nothing. but He still loves us so dearly and had done so much for us and He's still at work in our lives. i really want to surrender everthing unto God, including dancing as it became part of my life now. but never forgetting the purpose i started it. it is to serve and glory God. will stay strong and focus on things i am supposed to right now. as for dancing, it's over for now. but i know that God sometimes does things in a way that shows He alone is responsible. =)